The groomed, little and smart nerd with some up and down psyches and special characteristics.

After long-term weird relationships where it was normal to be kinky nearly every day, I struggled around to find something similar again. Something that starts with the kinky minimum core stuff like tight restrictions, some latex and maybe ends with a complex kinky play ship.

In the past I was the top, the rigger or lovely care giver but definitely not the Alpha-Dom. A playful Dom.
To find the serious Mistress is also a dream but seems somehow impossible.

BTW: I was always more into the alternate type of women, goths, geeks, nerds or simply those with a mental past.

whores, findoms and other capitalistic degenerated individuals.